This is a post I truly feel I need to write but I do not want to in the least. To write this it means I have to admit I failed. It has been on my heart to write this because I know I am not the only one who struggles with this and hopefully my struggle will help you with yours. I often find blogging fun, but there are times when I feel I am supposed to write something and it means being vulnerable it gets awfully scary. So here we go.
I joined BeachBody in the spring of 2012. I was very excited about the opportunity to help not only myself but others. I thrive on encouraging others and seeing them reach their goals. In beginning this journey I joined up with friends and we did P90X and we did great. I lost 20 pounds and felt amazing. Watch this…
So the easiest way for me to to describe the past year was that it sucked. There was death, diagnoses, loss, rejection and more that I never want to experience again. Unfortunately in that I began to struggle with depression again. In this time I discovered a lot about myself and one that I was an emotional eater. I was silly to not think of that before but it hit me like a ton of bricks. I had worked so hard to lose weight and I was 3 pounds from my goal. When the first blow came my first thought went to food and I remember thinking how strange that was but in some crazy way it brought comfort.
So now I am admitting I have gained all of those 20 pounds back. I have really struggled because I am trying to help others and in so failing to help myself. I have come to the fork in the road. I can continue on the route that I do not like or I can take the harder route and do what I did before and overcome this once and for all.
I am pretty sure I am not alone in this so I want to start a group that really focuses on emotional eating and trying to figure out what are those triggers that make us want to eat so we can break them. I know I cannot do this alone. I need you and the strength of my Lord and Savior. So there will also be a faith aspect to this where we truly can break the chains of bondage.
If you want to join me on this journey I would absolutely love it. Just email me and we can begin this journey. Our group will begin September 1. The group is private and you will be there with others that have the same struggles. The kids will be back in school. It will be a time of no more excuses.
Are you in?
“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”